In review of myself to explain a wider society of individualism. I find a term of “cuckold” or “beta-male” as a term of emasculation. Domination and risk-taking portrays an image of alpha. All powerful manhood. Masculinity derives from a biological duality of male and female, promptly found in hormones like testosterone and oestrogen and chromosomes of xx and xy. Seen as the dominating sex, the male sex drive is rip with aggression and power. But looking at cases of cultural differences such as non-patriarchal cultures found in isolated tribes. Surely the male sex drive is not the culprit of aggression but a patriarchal outlook from the omni-global culture of the old world, perhaps deriving from abrahamic faiths. My individuality of growing up with a single mother played a big role of how I see females and males. Women were in a position of power in my life, motherhood, teacher and caretaker in schools. Men were unknowns, filled with aggression, loud voices that roared. I came to position my attitudes and behaviour of obedience to both in different ways, women and females were a form of comfort and deep underlining respect. Men were feared and I mostly saw them as subjects of disturbance, I must avoid their ways.
Internet pornography is the fantasy for reluctant men to venture into the darker patriarchal role of aggression and domination. From sexual pleasures that are aimed towards men from the effort of women. I believe that pornography in totality is not a problem if it excludes the patriarchal role we as a global-culture have normalised. Beta-males are not an issue, being for centuries dominating and aggressive in the duality of men and women, being “cuckold”ed by females is perhaps the step to a egalitarian humanist world. We can review our sexuality through civility.
In terms of the larger intergender and intersex community, men and women are foolish to assume that there is no nuance of sexuality and gender. Homosexuality and heterosexuality are culturally assumed as polar opposites but this is as I believe comparing the light spectrum of red and green. Opposites are perhaps only appropriate for certain analysis. The beta-male perhaps can provide a better empathetic review of the intergender and intersex community rather than the all assuming dominating alpha male.
Philosopher and Economist – Amartya Sen
Kowloon slums in Hong Kong
At the time of my unveiling of my final grades from my BA in Digital Arts in UWL (Kingston College), I retorted with my grade results as a product of an averaging out of a bell-curve. As in, my 1:1 grade was only achieved because most of my class mates achieved levels lower than me, making my work jump to the upper threshold. I couldn’t have earned it. I was a natural loser, a person of underachievement. Throughout my youth, I did poorly in almost all my subjects, only scoring average. I came to settle in the idea of me being a low achiever. Although I was a good technical life drawer or a copy-and-tracer drawer, I came to find myself looking to the creative arts as a place of comfort for my imposter syndrome. Imposter syndrome has connections to an external locus of control, the belief that we cannot change external events or actions outside of ourselves. Whenever a barista or a waiter would get my order wrong I would find myself relinquishing a right to complain, or feel bad because I don’t have the right to say something, or I cannot change how people feel about me. I believe this is a universal feeling, a feeling of paranoia of the inability of melding people’s perception of you and your work. Over the course of a year doing my MA, I found a deeper lesion in my personality of being overwhelmed by attention and group-interaction. I could go on why I am phobic of gangs, clicks, and groups, but I’ll skip over that for now. But this overwhelming feeling of judgement, paranoia and a sense of not-belonging (being an underachiever) I relinquished my right to improve the situation or sell a better image of myself. Thus my fears of being left out and seen as an underachiever became true. For example, in my time as a ALS (Additional Learning Supporter) in a FE college, some students although attending a year long course in English, would refuse to attend the examination. They didn’t want to go through the feeling of being an underachiever and thus reinforced by not getting a resolve.
Artists and art are in my opinion one of the most personal expressions of individuality possible. Other than sexuality, protest, hatred, etc. To create art is to “put-yourself-out-there”. For me, I draw a lot of inspiration and creative energy from positivity and encouragement. When negative emotions, be it self-doubt or self-hatred, I find myself in a runt. Pain and misery are the hardest things to convey in art without causing the audience to look away, I’ll say most so than comedy and humour.
But I’ll finish by saying this, every once in a while remind yourself that you are you, you are good and you can always have the possibility of being good and you most of all must remind others of this.
“Chris Ware comics”
“Epileptic by David B”
“Paying For It by Chester Brown”
“Graphic Medicine” – https://www.graphicmedicine.org/
“The Production of Everyday Life” by Henri Lefebvre
This Is Harrow (2001)
The Works of Stephen Willat.
Fabricated Space – Systematic
Isabel suggested this graphic novel artist, that uses a peel-away feel to his illustrations. Similar to my attempts to clean and define shapes in pastels.
Sara mentioned Stephen Willat’s projects of fabricated spaces created with ambiguous intentions and the lived space perspectives.
Birgitta finds a counter version of my and Ballard’s critical review of high rises. She mentions Antonioni estate blocks. A filmmaker. She also mentions Cathy Come Home, a BBC documentary that apparently changed laws. It’s about the rural slums that predated the high rises. Created by Jeremy Sandford.
Loli suggests looking into Lived Spaces and Henri Lefebvre’s production of space.
I appreciate the quote, “you can change the flat, but the flat can change you”.
There seems to be no positive feelings for flats according to these residents. They don’t like the sameness of the architecture, one lady mentioned “down to earth” feeling. Maybe “Down to Earth” could be the title of the film. They complaint about the isolation of these flats. That one lady doesn’t really know people from the 2nd top floor. Perhaps the elevation of flats from the ground has made “stay-home” mums have cabin-fever.
I like how Marc Singer uses the format of documentary as a platform to rise money and awareness for these individuals. He didn’t start off with film or documentary but the issue and film was just the natural progression to his goals.
People sound the same from the slums when the tower blocks are being built to today with the tower blocks and privatised buildings now.
Revealing the scene, with a dynamic angle. Akin to nauseation.
Joe’s Critique – Too know the original intentions of the artist. Which is laboursome as it requires me watching more time on these individual films and cases, which eats away my procrastinating relaxation time I’m tried to.
Kim Sooja’s A Needle Woman’s is a performance piece where Sooja stands or sits still in different locations in the world. Sooja wants to explore the body’s vulnerability in spaces, the interaction/lack of interaction between the passer-byers. Sooja mentions “wearing [her] body” as we do not focus on her back. She wanted to be a medium.
A great shot film about a paranoid character witnessing the changing social landscape of his local streets. What this short as done is taken the reality of ‘social cleansing’ and placed it in a frame of a ridiculed trope of being a homeless-like insane character. The universality of knowing that gentrification is occurring helps this film place a feeling of outsiderness on the audience. We become the crazy character. At the end, our worst feelings are realised as a metaphorical literalism of turning poor people into coffee beans for the wealthy corporations.
What is Cinema Therapy? Dr Solomon trademarked the term cinematherapy as a model for patients to use a proxy review of one’s own afflictions. The advantage of pausing, rewatching, is furthered with the privacy and safety of one’s own home. Although the process of watching the actions of others provides a distance for the individual or to use empathetic understanding to release much-needed emotional evolution, there is a passivity of watching others go through chance. Cinematherapy provides a starting point or an alternative to therapy or self-development. It can only be partial in its goals.
Here are some good films to watch for childhood review and parental/child relationships. Interestingly the feel-good films label has resolves of characters that bring uplift and warmheartedness to the audience.
Disney’s The Kid (2000) written by Audrey Wells and directed by Jon Turteltaub starring Bruce Willis.
Pixar’s UP (2009) by Pete Docter, Bob Peterson.
Good Will Hunting (1997) directed by Gus Van Sant and written and starring Ben Affleck and Matt Damon.
What is different from my project. I plan to use elements of filmic tropics found in these cinematherapy films in the process of documentary filmmaking.